For those of you who read my last post, you can probably tell that I had a pretty tough week last week. Thanks to those of you who offered your sympathies and support! I have always been a big fan of journaling. I guess now that I have shifted to doing it online. That makes it even more fun, because I get so much encouragement back!
Speaking of journaling, I mentioned a while back that I was asked to speak at a women's retreat. It was this past weekend. Thanks for those of you who prayed for me! I think it went pretty well. At least that's what I was told. I was asked to speak for about 20 minutes about some of the things that I have learned the last few years. Where do I begin???! So I was looking back at my journal and found some pretty amusing and amazing things. I thought I would share a highly edited version of them with you. These were written when Alyssa was about 1 1/2 and we were deciding if we wanted to put ourselves through fertility treatments again or not. Then there are more thoughts as we went through the process. Someday I'll have to write out the whole story. Boy, did God answer my prayers and take care of my fears that I went to Him with!
March 30, 2005
"What if I get pregnant with twins? What will I do?"
May 23, 2005
"Lord, I so hate to be on that roller coaster again. So much work & pain - no guarantees. Extra stress. Feeling terrible. Heartaches. Maybe ending up with twins.... You won't ever give me more than I can handle, right?"
July 19, 2005
"I'm kind of scared of having twins, too. I don't know how I would do it! But You are in control. You have it all mapped out. Things will get done somehow."
July 25, 2005
"Oh Lord, I am scared that I may end up with twins and that I will really have my hands full. But I trust You not to give me more than I can handle."
August 13, 2005
"Maybe you do want us to have twins and it would be easier to be on bed rest and all that with Schlep off for the summer...."
August 30, 2005
"...I am a little worried it's going to work too well. God, I am really scared of multiples and bed rest and getting a van and all that entails. But I know that You will never give me more than I can handle. I know that, no matter what, I'll get excited with what You give to me."
September 16, 2005
"What am I doing, God, and what have You got in store for me? Oh Lord, I guess I just have to sit back and see."
October 17, 2005
"If you want me to have triplets, then You will provide a way for it to work."
October 28, 2005
"If you want me to have triplets, so be it...I know that if you call me to something of that magnitude that You will provide. The bed rest will be taken care of. The cars will fall into place. And you will help me to get over my selfishness and to enjoy the blessings that come from it. It's Your call now, Lord."
Isn't that funny? If I hadn't seen that in my own handwriting, I wouldn't have believed some of it! I was especially amused that I went from being worried about twins to talking about triplets! Some people think that journaling is boring, but going back and reading stuff like that is half the fun! And in case you can't remember how the story turned out, I got pregnant in December and had the triplets in July 2006. So it was good that Dave was off to take care of Alyssa while I was on bedrest. God's perfect timing!
OK, well that was a major side trip, and I didn't even know that I was going to include that when I started writing this. But, what I did mean to say is that one of the good parts of last week was that I got to hang with some girlfriends, too. On Monday, 5 of us who used to hang out together in high school got together. One came all the way from Panama! We had a great time catching up. I still can't believe that amongst the 5 of us, we have 17 children! How did that happen? It's so awesome to have friends like that where you can just pick up with them even though you haven't seen each other in years.
I also got to have a playdate with my friend Linda. I think I have mentioned her before. She is a fellow triplet mom, and her kids are just a few months ahead of mine. She always has genius ideas and suggestions, as well as just plain being fun to hang out with. Since both of our husbands were working that night, we packed some dinners and headed to the park. We got a little drizzled on, but that meant that we had the park to ourselves. This is a good thing, when you could easily pass your kids off as sextuplets. And, we had my triple stroller and her choo choo wagon to draw that much more attention to us. But the comments weren't too bad, considering. There was a guy who was out in his yard with his two dogs who surprised me by saying, "And I thought I had my hands full." For some reason, the guy comments always amuse me more. I didn't even know this guy was watching us, as we were walking in a remote part of the park. But anyway, (boy am I distracted tonight), there is nothing in this world like another mom to relate to what you are going through. Something about watching our triplets together and how they all fight and throw tantrums the same way just gave us a sense of normalcy (OK, mine were the ones fighting and hers were good, but I hear they do fight). Being normal is something our family doesn't experience very often, so it's nice when we finally get that. It makes me look forward to our upcoming picnic, where all the triplets and more families will show up and hang out. I think it will be organized chaos.
And then, of course, I mentioned that I got to go to the women's retreat this weekend for our church. Dave turned down my offers to schedule help and watched the kids by himself (I was gone for about 24 hours.) He did great and even cleaned the bathroom while I was gone. What a man! (Yikes, yet another rabbit trail.)
But the retreat was great. Our church has such a fun, encouraging group of ladies that I loved being with. I had a great time just sitting and socializing. I don't get to do either as much as I would like. The camp we were at was just beautiful, too. Of course, the food was great, because I didn't have to decide what we were eating or fix it or do any dishes. I also loved getting to eat it start to finish without getting up once! Then after I ate, I could just sit there and chat. It was awesome! We also had fun going out to their Alpine Tower. It is 54 feet high, and most of the ladies climbed it, including our 76 year old member! I wasn't strong enough to try it, but I did do the swing. I bet I was about 35 or 40 feet up. The problem was, when you let go of the rope, you are supposed to let the people on the other end of it know. Oops. I didn't, so I ended up knocking the people who were pulling me up onto their bums. Sorry girls! Made for a good laugh, though.
Sorry, I don't have any pictures of all of this for you. I haven't been taking my camera with me lately. I think I am getting burned out on it, since I am so behind on many of the other things I want to capture on this blog. I'm sure I will return to my picture happy ways soon.
But needless to say, I had a great time hanging out with the girls this week!
God bless,
Amanda